This is my November post for Alex Cavanaugh’s Insecure Writer’s Support Group, a lovely group of writers helping and inspiring other writers. To read more from this amazing group, click here.
Here’s what’s open on my desktop right now.
- Draft ten (but really draft seventeen because after a while I stopped numbering them) of my novel UNDER THE APPLE TREE, inching ever closer to the day I dare to send it out.
- A draft query letter for UTAT I reread every few days and tweak.
- A synopsis for UTAT. Same deal as above, it's in minor revision mode.
- An Excel spreadsheet of all the agents
who ignoredI sent my last novel to.
- A new Excel spreadsheet for UTAT, with agents and contact information to which I’m still adding. In an attempt to avoid a response that says, “Thanks, but this isn’t my type of project” I’m trying to be very discriminating this time.
It’s all sitting there waiting for me to do something and I can’t decide if I’m frozen (and trust me, I am ), because UTAT isn’t ready to send out yet, or I'm just scared to let this one go. And then, there’s timing. The upcoming holidays make for a distraction. Do I want to send my baby out to someone who is trying to clear the decks before vacation?
This book is as good as I know how to write it. And yet, is it enough? Some days I wake up thinking that the fact I’m questioning it means it’s not.
Listen to your voices, I say to myself. So I wait. And tweak. And wait some more.