Blackman's Point
Not what you planned
when you maxed out
credit cards
to buy
a trailer home
one row back
from the sea.
Monthly interest
secured a shush
and slurry ocean,
the rain refrain
of pebbles,
awning flap-ups,
goosebumps
off the water,
green-head curses
from the marshland
behind.
All year long
you counted to Spring,
for packing the car,
climbing grey-stained steps,
unlocking the door,
built-in table, bed,
airplane bath,
the beagle from
the next door RV
whimpering at dawn.
Even tarnished
by chemo,
the trailer wheels
rusted from salt,
you thrilled
at the purchase,
never wanting
to leave
the sun, earth,
cinnamon smell
of beach plum roses,
a high tide line
tumbled with stone.
During the last winter,
we rinsed pink pails of bile,
tempted you with
delicacies you could
no longer chew,
cringed at the erosion
of your flesh,
and still you plucked
at the bedspread,
planning summer,
refusing to concede to
any finish, but to
make your way
to the trailer,
and so, in the end,
we took you to
the white beach light.